I barely slept last night. The pressure may be getting to me. Work is busy, the Ironman 70.3 is in a few days away and I am going through some personal issues that are inappropriate to discuss in this blog. I just hope that things are smoother before the raceday or so and I can get back into concentrating on the race. Needless to say, I have other things on my mind…
I was to go biking outdoors with Kim but cancelled and rode my trainer (easy pace) at home for only 30 minutes today. I am drained and hope to sleep well tonight. I don’t like feeling like I do today. I am physically fine, but mentally drained. I have nobody to blame but myself. Somehow, I have to search for strength from within; this is not natural for me as I am an extrovert. Every day is a new lesson…
Tomorrow, I am working half-day and will pack in the afternoon after cleaning my bike. If I feel up to it, I may go run in the desert tomorrow evening by myself to find some solitude. For a change, I will run alone without my iPod. I have read that sometimes, running is music. I have yet to experience that, but I am searching (although I am not sure what I am searching for)…